In January, my goal for the year
was to choose happy. I firmly believe that happiness is a choice. Everyone has their stuff. Work, family, money, pressure, health. There are hundreds of things pulling on us every day and I promise you that no one has a perfect life. Everyone has something weighing on their heart, trying to slow them down, or adding worry to their plate.
I know it is however much easier to say you're going to choose happiness than it often is to actually choose it. Setting mini-goals for myself has helped. Generally I know what makes me happy and the point of the smaller goals was to give me a little something to focus on for the month that would add a little joy to my days. Some months this has worked great, others have not.
July and August have been the toughest months of the year for me. Usually this is my favorite time of the year. I love the heat. I love the sunshine. I love days spent at the beach or pool. I love my birthday.
This year however, my summer has been filled with doctor appointments and PICC lines and I am found it exceedingly hard to choose or even find happiness sometimes. I don't want to make it sound like I'm lost in some bottomless pit of dispair. PICC lines suck, but I'm okay and doing better every day. Like everyone I have days where it is hard to be happy. Here are some things that have helped me that I am sharing in the hopes they will help you because I know we all have those days.
Choose to give yourself a break. It is okay to say no or ask for help. Find ways to take care of yourself. For me this is usually quiet time curled up with a good book
or a streaming tv show. Whatever it is for you, figure out a way for you to get the time for yourself that you need.
Choose to start a new project. One of my biggest issues this summer was that what I wanted to do (go on a long road trip or swim in the pool) were on my NO list from the doctor. So I picked a new project. On my birthday I went to the craft store and bought some colorful fabric to make something happy. Creating always makes me feel happy. Perhaps trying something new, learning a new skill, or going on a little mini-adventure
will add a little spark to your day, week, or month.
Choose to figure out how to make it work. I wallowed. Boy did I wallow. But then I got to work making it work. I figured out how to make meds fit into my day. I figured out what exercise was okay. I bought a shower cover that was slightly less cumbersome and allowed me to at least stand in the water a little ways.
Choose to focus on the good. I know. Believe I know. There are days when this is SO hard but try to find some good. Something to focus on. For me, looking at pictures
helps. Whether they are of today or past days, looking at smiling faces and remembering happy moments helps. It gives me perspective. It reminds me that I have a supportive, kind husband and two happy, curious kids. I reminds me that I can still do so much.
And slowly move towards once again choosing happy. Choose those things that make you happy. Choose the people who make you laugh. Choose to be happy inspite of whatever has got you down. You might not be able to change that hardship or difficulty, but you can choose to accept it and find ways to fill your life with joy.
PS thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who has called and emailed, commented and texted, brought me cookies and mailed me surprises in the past couple months. I know I haven't said thank you to all of you but you lift me up every day and you can't imagine how much that means to me.